Can I Do This?

This is the view from where I stand.

I stand at the kitchen sink a lot these days.

(Please don't confuse standing with washing dishes.)

The green makes me happy.

There are colors all around.

Looking out and knowing that it is warm out there.

All very very good things.

Maybe I've been hibernating because it was so cold outside.
Maybe I needed a little time and didn't know it.
My grandmother died.
Then it was holiday time.
Then we moved.
And now I am here.

I might be ready to come out again.
I think about this place a lot.

I just haven't been able to get my thoughts together.
I kinda want to though.

Can I do it?
Am I ready?
One thing I know for sure, I'll know tomorrow.