Lift it up

I went to church today.
I woke up, bolted up, and went.
Alone.

I don't know what I am looking for.
But I do know there is comfort in that place.

There are so many people we love with so so many struggles right now.
In the last 6 days we have had a dear friend lose a family supporting job, a friend lose a dear pet, 2 separate friends have parents with very serious health problems, a friend with a husband in the hospital, and so so so many of our people having to deal with cancer.

Stoopid cancer.
I hate cancer.

 

 

I don't know what 2013 holds for me or my family.

But I do know that I have this need to find comfort.

To live honestly.

To be the best person I can possibly be.

And for some reason, I feel called to walk through the doors of the church.

 

Searching for answers.

Singing a familiar song.

Sitting in the quiet reverent place with people around me that I do not know, but who are just like me - and human.